Written Rebuttal

The way a person writes can determine the sort of people who will want to read it. The active or passive voice can direct the attention that they would receive. It is unfortunate that the punctuation and diction as well as the grammatical structure, topics, and paragraph formations are also very important. It is these things that have allowed this A.C.T. to go on for so long.

I have a habit of creating a shadow of myself in whatever I create. I could write it, speak it, record it, and a sliver of what I mean might make it through and time and shown me that it is only the people closest to me that truly come to understand my brand of comedy, tragedy, parody, and it is also these people that can also tell when I am being serious or silly. Unfortunately these things are lost here, throughout the disjointed paragraphs which all started with a well meaning point only to later drown, not even a paragraph away, in the overcomplexity and ridiculousness of my diction and persistent and altogether accidental prose style.

Like my YouTube page, each video was created with a point or creative intention only to fall short and become and over complicated mess that asks too much time from people, with little reward. I feel like I have to go back and create translations for myself – which I also feel here. This kind of overcomplicated nature is also a part of my personal life. My family and friends know all too well of it and perhaps I might have been more successful if I had only intentioned to be personal and speak out about my personal history and problems. At least those stories are interesting.

My points shoot out like thistles in every direction. If my writings here are dance steps, they wouldn’t make any sense and no partner would be able to keep up or enjoy it. I have only gone out of my way to make an oddity of myself, it was never my intention. I have only gone out of my way to allow myself open to personal attack, with my overly pretentious and at times narcissistic and distant way of speaking.

I will continue to write here for the pleasure of it, which is really all this is about. I’ve been mocked for that fact as well, having been told that this is nothing more than ‘masturbation of my psyche’. I can’t bring myself to agree with that. My views and opinions on matters of sexuality, morality, and current affairs are not usually considered by or applicable to other people. That tells me this is good and right, even if I overstep myself at times.

I am listened to and appreciated by those I keep close. I am respected for as a voice of reason and pit of knowledge even if others I know wouldn’t agree. They don’t have to agree with me, but a nice and well written rebuttal is always nice.